the plan starts tonight
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Hun, please don't do it. Things really can get better. I know it doesn't feel like it can right now but it can.
What's going on right now that has you feeling like this? Can you tell someone and get some help?
You are right tho, we are all hypocrites. I think its because we care more about our friend's lives than we do about our own. :hug:
PM me if you need to talk hun.
What's going on right now that has you feeling like this? Can you tell someone and get some help?
You are right tho, we are all hypocrites. I think its because we care more about our friend's lives than we do about our own. :hug:
PM me if you need to talk hun.
LIFE does not suck - there are some wonderful things that can happen out there - and with depression its just that we are not good at happy endings.
Depression sucks! sure - who wants to be in on a Friday night?
Well - actually me - the pub is boring sometimes - why should I always have to be the interesting one with something to say? lol
Anyhow - lets not kill ourselves - or get drawn into that mindset. Admitting it is as good as saying "I want to live!" - because if anyone wanted to die - and was 100% certain it was right - why bother announcing it and possibly getting saved?
iKayla - I've not read much of your story and don't know why you feel this way - some of us have personal lives and troubles which maybe trigger or cause depression.
But it can get better. :biggrin:
I've living proof you can be messed up beyond all possible labels - have more issues than the Jews and Palestinians and still choose to live and find something worth living for.
Regards!
Depression sucks! sure - who wants to be in on a Friday night?
Well - actually me - the pub is boring sometimes - why should I always have to be the interesting one with something to say? lol
Anyhow - lets not kill ourselves - or get drawn into that mindset. Admitting it is as good as saying "I want to live!" - because if anyone wanted to die - and was 100% certain it was right - why bother announcing it and possibly getting saved?
iKayla - I've not read much of your story and don't know why you feel this way - some of us have personal lives and troubles which maybe trigger or cause depression.
But it can get better. :biggrin:
I've living proof you can be messed up beyond all possible labels - have more issues than the Jews and Palestinians and still choose to live and find something worth living for.
Regards!
i'm not saying i'm doing it... but i'm not saying i'm not either
going to take pictures again [i'm serious, i am taking pictures of the train] i didn't get close enough yesterday so i'm gonna try to get closer..
i dont necessarily think this would be suicide if i do die.. because at this moment i am at peace and happy.
if anything it would have been a mistake and accident if i die today.
wish me luck.
going to take pictures again [i'm serious, i am taking pictures of the train] i didn't get close enough yesterday so i'm gonna try to get closer..
i dont necessarily think this would be suicide if i do die.. because at this moment i am at peace and happy.
if anything it would have been a mistake and accident if i die today.
wish me luck.
A person i knew has gone in that way. It was terrible! for his relatives, for me, and all those who knew him, in a way or the other. Please stop taking pictures and getting near that thing. The effect of it is just to reinforce the "train" scheme in the brain. Distract yourself, go for a long run, do so much sports you won't even have the energy to think about stuff. Best wishes!!
i don't know what to do, my mom mentioned school was tomorrow and all of a sudden i feel the need to go to the train tracks to take pictures.
i don't know what to do, i think to myself, just take it 1 day at a time.. but then the idea keeps popping in my head i have this really huge urge to go!
i just don't know anymore
i don't know what to do, i think to myself, just take it 1 day at a time.. but then the idea keeps popping in my head i have this really huge urge to go!
i just don't know anymore
Kayla, you are not a wimp. The things you are feeling are not your fault. You did nothing wrong. I know what it is like to live in fear and depression. When I drive to New York City and cross the bridge, I sometimes feel like a "wimp" who didn't have the courage to jump. But it takes courage to keep going, to try a new strategy. When you keep trying you are, whether you know it or not, courageously choosing to fight for the possibility of happiness; however remote it may appear. You can always go to the tracks some other day. Just at least for now, stay away from the tracks. Talk to people here. We may not know what is going on, but I don't think anyone here would judge you or criticize you. I speak for myself when I say I am an imperfect person who feels broken and lost. How could I then have any right to judge? Stay safe. Search out another coping strategy for now.
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