Is there a point where this just becomes a compulsion... it starts as a simple thought ' i could just cut a little or take this many of that'... i often dont and i make it harder. I take meds to a friend, i dont stay in my room, i go out, keep busy BUT the thoughts never really go away. And it simply becomes that i have to do it. I'm at that point now.. last night i gave meds to a friend but had to get them back so i could take the ones i needed. I now have all of them again and the idea of taking them hasn't decreased. My friend said i could give them back to her but i feel like i have to be strong on my own. Im 24, im not a child.