I have a small group I have to meet with 9 hours out of the week and finally decided to let my counselor know what is going on (voices, tactile hallucinations, suicidal thoughts). I know how I would do it if I tried to end it again, but I don't currently have a plan to do so. To me it makes sense that instead of trying suicide again I could turn back to various self harm methods which used to always make me feel better. The problem with even mentioning that is that medical people seem to immediately want to call some sort of lock-down facility unless I say I am not going to hurt myself. I really don't see what the problem with it is because it is not causing any permanent damage and it wouldn't even be visible to anybody else and on top of that it makes me feel a lot better! I did what she told me to and made a psych appt and everything but now I don't feel like I can talk about it again so I just have to pretend it's not going on. Any advice is welcome, and I know I am not the only one to have had this going on so if anybody wants to talk about something that is going on I will. Helps get me out of my own head for a bit.