Many years ago I promised myself that I would not take my life for as long as my mother was still alive. After everything she has done for me, that is the very least I owe her. The thing is, all these years later, she is still relatively healthy and might well live another 10+ years. 10+ years? I don't even know if I will be able to make it through 10 more days. How am I going to be able to keep my promise? I am not looking for any "talk to someone/get some help" type responses. It is way too late for all that. I am just wondering if there is anyone else out there who can relate. If so, how are you dealing with this? If love is my jailer, then what will set me free?