Who is the real enemy? Is it pain in my soul, or the one who inflicts it? Would I still feel this way, if the world around me would be different? Sometimes I'm scared of what I see sometimes I want to be like them, because I'm convinced there is only two options - "like me" or "like them" And when I walk in a dark room, I imagine I am them, because then i am "them" not "me" When I finally found the first one who was "like I" was, not "like them", i had turned into "them", Why would I meet her when my heart was still so bitter? Can I be "like me", without being harmed by them? Or was I ever "like them" to her? No I wasn't, not even close! But I was not me, That is what gives me guilt Is there any greater evil, than to both hurt someone, and give *them* the guilt? Why would anyone do this? I no longer doubt, the conspiracies of 9/11 are true. If persons can hurt others and blame the victim, why can't a whole country? Sometimes I feel I can never be redeemed, and "they" never charged for what they did, but it would be enough for me, to see those who truly did 9/11, suffer trial in their place. For if a whole country can be victim of what I suffered, then can a lonesome person, avoid such evil? In my life, against my enemy, I fought alone. But in the battle against a lying nation, we may be many. If this victory of truth can first be won, then maybe also my victory?