So I come across as this outgoing brat, right? I seem so damn confident, and I'm always about helping people. Okay, yeah, I absolutely love helping people, I want to do it as a career, but still.. I kinda need help too, and it's so horrible to actually admit that.. I'm self-concious, I think everyone else is like perfect and I'm this complete mess. I honestly feel like if I just left no one would notice, or even really care.. I try to act like such a positive person, and a lot of people might think I'm a hypocrite, because I want other people to feel better, and not myself.. Truth is, I do want to feel better, I just don't know how, and it's hard to just open up to people. I'll be vague, but I never really go into detail.. I just, wish I had a friend.. I mean, I do have friends.. But someone who I could tell anything to, and they wouldn't think I was some complete freak, and they wouldn't just stop being my friend because I did something stupid.. I want people to care, not walk on eggshells around me.. I need to be told that I'm a good person, because I really never think I am. Even tiny little things seem like the worst thing possible. It's just how my mind works, honest.. You could yell at me, and I'll think that you absolutely hate me and want me to go die.. That's how extreme things seem to me.. I just.. Really.. Hate hiding behind some fake smile. I have problems too. I love helping people on here, and I don't plan on stopping, but.. I need help to, I'm just afraid to ask for it.