I for so long have been trying to find that person. When I started growing away from my parents, and find out I am not the weakling I thought I was. Some prt of my mom grew scared, she is a very pessimistic person, always declaring the absolute worst on everything, and being around someone liek that so long, had a toll on me. It affected my point of view, but somewhere down the line growing up I wanted to see better then that, not just see the worst in people, so I tried to trust other people, don't just judge them on how they look and appear. That helped me make alot of friends growing up, but some of those friends turned out to be very twisted on conceited. but here today as far as friends go i think I have found my true friends. I just wish I could get over this feeling that my disability puts this label on me, cause in so many ways it feels that my disability makes me who I am in alot of ways, which in reality it does. The feeling of not being as good as the next guy, in basic things in life. (that's putting it mildly)..confidence to name one Theres just so many things of myself I wish i could change, and i am not talking int he physical aspect. This just show how much all the occurances during a person's life, how much it can take a toll or improve your life. I feel liek I have had nothing but bad happenings in my own. I don't know if it is my own fault or bad luck. As to the characteristics of myself. I am supporting, loving, quiet, good listener and always try to keep my faith in others. Yet so many women in my life just dump me as if I am nothing. So I would love to know, what is it of me that is so horrible unacceptable. I can get over my parents, they was not there how I needed support, which was emotional support, I felt liek they was trying to buy me out, just spending money on me, cause that was one household that hardly had any comunication, aside from fighting and arguing. But I am glad that is all over now.