Hi, I just wanted to get this off my chest, im in horrible, horrible pain. I split up from my wife of 9 years, we have two children who are 9 and 7. I live on my own in a flat, I have been on my own for 7 months. I have nothing left, i will never live my children again, i dont know whats gonna happen in the future. Im lonely, scared, i cant see a future for myself. My pain is constant, it will not go away. I have tried drinking but it makes things worse. My wife wont have me back, thats over. I thinkin about finishing it tonite, but ive decided not yet. My soul is dead, i only feel pain. I cant see me living much longer, i want the pain to leave me... I cant cope.