I attempted, again, and nearly succeeded, again. It involved pills, but of a certain prescription that are actually lethal when taken in excess because it builds up in your blood and upsets the balance of your sodium and electrolytes, among other things. I rented a hotel room, took a bunch of them along with some stuff to help with vomiting (to keep me from it). Then I threw up a lot, despite the meds. Next thing I know, the police were knocking at my hotel door because my case manager called them and they'd been searching the whole town for me. I was in the hospital several days. Then I was sent to a large, university mental hospital. The doctor suggested I have Electro-Convulsive Therapy (aka shock therapy). So I have been. I did several times inpatient and I go tomorrow morning for it again. I can't remember shit. Wish I was dead.