The sand is running out...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by boo, Jul 24, 2009.

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  1. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    And the clock is ticking...
    I've been a member for a while, but i have never post about my suicidal risk. Because i'm not one who likes to draw attention nor want to be pitied, contemptuous sorrow or empathy for me. I know people here wants to help, but i doubt strangers know how hurt i am. I have been deprived of happiness for so long. The expression of joy has lost its meaning. And pain has become trivial. I dont blame anybody but myself for my failures, for i am the one who allowed myself into this position. I am weak. I gave life chances over and over, only to set myself for dissapointement. It has forsaken me. I dont hate life, only mine. I dont hate people, only me.

    I'm thankful to have met wonderful people here in SF. Some whom depression is justified, others not so much. But suffer we all have.

    My time is running out, so are my options. Scared i might be, but to go i must. People wont miss me, but to miss you all i shall, even in oblivion.
  2. triggs

    triggs Account Closed

    please don't do this hun! you're worth so much more than this :hug:
    stay and talk to us, maybe we can help :heart:
    triggs xx
  3. cofmadness

    cofmadness Well-Known Member

    Don't do anything stupid dude I'd miss you even though I barely know you, remember things can change if you try, some are just plain fucked but I honestly think there's hope for you.... If that means anything *hug
  4. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    Helena, you are few who understand me. I enjoyed my time talking to you, truly
  5. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    its like fallin from a plane, the fall is not what matters but the crash
  6. mandyj101

    mandyj101 Well-Known Member

    hey boo..
    ur a kewl guy and we have had some laughs in the chat room.. plz know im here 4 u anytime.. i do understand where ur coming from .. :hug:
  7. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    You are really sweet mandy
  8. Hitomi

    Hitomi Well-Known Member

    pleae dont do this Boo, you're one of the few I can truly talk re a great person and a good friend.
  9. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    I always feel like im bothering you Hitomi :p but youre nice
  10. 1izombie

    1izombie Well-Known Member

    Dude I dont care what the fuck u say NO u havent given life a chance cause ur soo oblivious to it all, U have no clue really, its all ur preception man, u feel this way cause of some cognitive distortion u believe that ur weak and have ruined ur life...Fuck...just reach out talk to someone man, tell them what ur going thru...ur not alone... ur worth it...u'll see its not as fucked as u think it is...Please!! dont do it!!!!
  11. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    Liar! you just want to eat my brain! :eek:hmy:
  12. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey hopelessness i hate that feeling Your mind not working clearly your depression fogging everything up again. You need to change up something your medication your enviroment get a hold of your doctor your therapist and tell them where your brain is at reach out now before it gets worse.
    Hopelessness is the worse feeling for me because it brings so much pain so much despair I am telling you there is HOPE nothing is hopeless there are different paths you can take you just have to find them. Please reach out and get help you need now Please because obiviously you are wrong You will be MISSED and people will suffer if you let your brain win.
  13. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    :hug: Boo!!

    Sorry,I only got around to reading this now!

    You talk about your failures. What do you consider your failures to be?
    You're most definitely not a failure, you're kind,considerate and always there for others. Don't be so hard on yourself :hugtackles:
  14. 1izombie

    1izombie Well-Known Member

    I'm glad u still have ur sense of humor but man please reach out and get help...u are worth it..pleeeeease!!!!!
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