...is that I have so much lithium in my blood already, that an overdose would be easy. It's frightening, knowing that I could down a bottle of tabs, and it could easily be fatal. According to the information superhighway, I have plenty to swallow a fatal amount, and then some, because my lithium levels are necessarily very high, and my prescription gives me more than enough per refill. But it could also cause brain damage, which I sure as hell wouldn't want. It's just...frightening. In an impulsive move, a quick action of desperation to stop a pain, I know I would be out of my mind, and tunnel vision would set in. An easy method, and an impulsive temperament. I've overdosed on impulse before without result, and I'm prone to doing something impulsive again. I'm wondering if I should check myself back into a hospital soon. I don't think I have the self-control to stop myself if I'm hit by some unexpected pain that I'm desperate to stop. Well, whatever. I just want to sleep tonight. I haven't slept well for three nights now and am starting to feel the effects of sleep deprivation.