I just feel like I can't go on anymore. I take 12 pills in the morning and one at night just for epilepsy and depression. I just feel like it's too much to deal with. Anyone know a good way to stop the seizures? I keep getting absence seizures and panic attacks, and I just wish my parents would leave the room so I could do something stupid and destructive to get all the stress out. I've been trying to stop cutting as well, so the stress is even worse. I feel like I'd just rather be dead by tomorrow...I want to stop the seizures, but I want them to get bad to the point where I'd die.