They set me off.. I don't know why. I'm so fucking angry!!! I just can't control it anymore. The tiniest thing sets me off, and then I'm pissed, I punch things, I make bruises on myself by clenching so hard, and then I'm depressed and want to kill myself. My body tenses and I just can't get anything out've my head but inflicting pain. WHY?! Why is it so god-damned bad??? The dog goes on the floor, so I slam my head into a stud in the wall! I can't do anything. I WILL NOT take anymore fucking meds EVER. They screwed me up worse than this, and YES I've tried about 20 different ones and I'm DONE! No shrink, they all tell me the same thing, again had about 5 different ones and I'm DONE. I just want to die! Why is it so hard for God to just let me die?! I serve no purpose and I'm sick of thinking " OH maybe, JUST MAYBE tomorrow will be better!!!". I'M DONE! So soon it will all end, the pain, the suffering, the tenseness. All will end. I just can't take it anymore. I don't want help, I don't want friends, I just want to die... So PLEASE, PLEASE God, just let me die!!!