specifically my family. specifically my mother and father for the fucked up life they handed to me on a silver platter. there are demons that will not leave me alone because of them and their abuse+neglect. i fucking hate them both and i hope they go to hell. anyways, is this something a psychopath would want? i've never actually admitted that to anyone, not even my drs. im scared of what they would say or think if i did tell them. suicide would be the ultimate revenge and triumph for me. im crying and sometimes i can see myself xxxx....it brings me glee, tears of victory. what is wrong with me? why am i this dark person? i am such a positive spirit to others, but they do not know how dark my mind goes. in all honesty, does that sound sick or does this make sense? no amount of success could be vengeance upon what they've done to me; they do not dserve to bask in any type of pride they could have via myself. f*ck em. right now, it's just a matter of when, not if. i dont think there is any other way out of this. i want them to feel my pain.