I am sick of not being listened to. Bloody Psychiatrists....I wont explain in detail as I have written all in my blog. But it's really pissed me off. I tried to explain today that I had thoughts other than self harm. That I had constant thoughts of suicide and I was cut off. So what's the point? I know that if I could be given a method that is certain would work and would look like an accident I would take it. I have a few conditions... 1- That no one else can think they were to blame - so no getting run over 2 - That is wont cause me any pain or make me sick. As soon as I start being sick I panic and get help. 3 - It has to look accidental - it would save my family more pain. 4 - It has to definitly work. No possibilities of leaving me disabled etc. 5 - A non violent method. Not on my part. So I couldn't jump off a bridge or tall building. And it's not as though I can get accidently shot when there is hardly any gun crime where I live and I have never seen a gun. I think that's it. I am pissed off at feeling the way I do and the cycles I go through all the time. I don't want a life like this.