I am bipolar, and taking several medications for the disorder. They got rid of my mania but I am still depressed all the time. I just can't get the suicidal thoughts so go away. I try ignoring them, distracting myself, being positive planning for the future...but it I keep coming back to how much easier it would all be. The biggest argument people always have is that I would be hurting the people who care about me so much if I did it, and all I can think is that its not fair I have to suffer for them to be happy. I don't want to feel this way, I am doing everything I should be to make these feelings stop, I take me medicine, I go to counciling, I even moved in with family so there is always someone around. But it just does not seem to change things.