I am tired of being ignored, by so called friends and loved ones. All that the years have proven is that the people closet to me don't give a damn about me and it is impossible for me to make new friends. I have decided to end my life and end it soon. I tried scheduling a doctors appoiment for early in the week, and I am going to tell her how I feel sooner or later, and if she can't convice me otherwise then that night I am going to do it, I have the method its about as fullproff as you can get. I am so sick of living, I don't see how other people mannage, all I know is I can't so I won't suffer anymore.