Hello, peoples I Believe in the fact that everything we face is the lord testing us, even if this theory is philosophically paradoxical, and that weathering the storm is simply a reaffirmation of faith. However, when the problem faced is BIZZARE....i don't know what to do. If you haven't guessed by know, yes, this is a rant I came to this country when i was 10, and things were perfectly normal for the first few years. I had friends, i could talk normally, and by all measures, was a perfectly normal personHowever, when i was 12, i lapsed into a video game addiction, which in retrospect, i consider to have ruined my life. I was in a cave..isolated from the world, and life was a routine of going to school, coming back , playing, studying, playing and sleeping. I never went out for any other reason. However, there comes a moment of realization in everyone's life, and that sorta came to me when i was 15. I decided to leave the childish addiction behind, and focus on going out more. But horror of horrors, when i went back to my friends, a new sensation hit me. Fear. Fear gripped my heart, made my hands shiver, and my heart beat faster. Everyone had two questions..."Where were you all these years ??", and "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ??"...I quickly excused myself, went home, and became a recluse once again, this time, however, my imprisonment was forced. Or rather, is. I have been living like this for the past 2 years, afraid of the people whom I once called friends, and simultaneously ashamed of my existance. I contemplated suicide, but everytime I did so, I would look at my sister, and my heart would ache. I slowly lapsed into depression, which is where I am now.....SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP !!!!!