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The voice "evolved"?

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Moose

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Im not sure if this is in the right section...
Anyway i posted her a bout 3 or 4 months ago i had a voice in my head.....not anymore! Its actually got worse and worse...

It changed from a voice to a thing that randomly took over me during a day..it was scary and was hurting people around me so i done something about it. Thanks to the help of my gf we got rid of it....or so i thought...yesterday i was feeling really really down usually the times it likes to strike. I was in my bed crying my eyes out and when i opened them there was someone standing in the corner. Every time i blinked i seen these greek symbols i only recognize one..the one for the letter O. The person in the room told me who he was...and the person isn't real...he told me..he calls himself "Michael" now hes not terrorizing my head. now hes terrorizing my life!!!!

Yesterday was real hell and today i've seen him randomly in places. He tells me hes not here to hurt me..he says he wants to help me but...thats what he said before...im 100% i want to trust him...

I dont feel too bad today i just feel angry. The best thing is i dont know why i was sad yesterday or why im angry today..i just am...which is strange...

I only post like once every month and sometimes im not sure if i want to cause my friends can all see what i write here but i dont care what they think anymore, they know most of my problems and ive asked them if they want to help they all said "no" so fuck them! sorry for my language im just angry as i said before....
 
wallflower

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PureGunk said:
Im not sure if this is in the right section...
Anyway i posted her a bout 3 or 4 months ago i had a voice in my head.....not anymore! Its actually got worse and worse...

It changed from a voice to a thing that randomly took over me during a day..it was scary and was hurting people around me so i done something about it. Thanks to the help of my gf we got rid of it....or so i thought...yesterday i was feeling really really down usually the times it likes to strike. I was in my bed crying my eyes out and when i opened them there was someone standing in the corner. Every time i blinked i seen these greek symbols i only recognize one..the one for the letter O. The person in the room told me who he was...and the person isn't real...he told me..he calls himself "Michael" now hes not terrorizing my head. now hes terrorizing my life!!!!

Yesterday was real hell and today i've seen him randomly in places. He tells me hes not here to hurt me..he says he wants to help me but...thats what he said before...im 100% i want to trust him...

I dont feel too bad today i just feel angry. The best thing is i dont know why i was sad yesterday or why im angry today..i just am...which is strange...

I only post like once every month and sometimes im not sure if i want to cause my friends can all see what i write here but i dont care what they think anymore, they know most of my problems and ive asked them if they want to help they all said "no" so fuck them! sorry for my language im just angry as i said before....
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Don't worry. I have schizophrenia too and It's treatable. The best antipsychotic out there for me is abilify. That gets rid of the voices FAST and compared to seroquel which made things worse for me it will make you think alot clearer, It's also good for paranoia. I have paranoid schizophrenia and it's completely managed. But life is hard, no matter what. I would see a nice doctor and he/she willl be able to get you through this. THe voice will stop evolving and will just go away. I have had this voice that has been in nightmares etc. It is going away. I wish you the best of luck.
 
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PureGunk said:
It changed from a voice to a thing that randomly took over me during a day..it was scary and was hurting people around me so i done something about it. Thanks to the help of my gf we got rid of it....or so i thought...yesterday i was feeling really really down usually the times it likes to strike. I was in my bed crying my eyes out and when i opened them there was someone standing in the corner. Every time i blinked i seen these greek symbols i only recognize one..the one for the letter O. The person in the room told me who he was...and the person isn't real...he told me..he calls himself "Michael" now hes not terrorizing my head. now hes terrorizing my life!!!!
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It sounds like you're either schizophrenic or that there's a negative entity that's tormenting you. Either way, you need to be strong and fight for your life. Don't let it get the better of you.
 
Moose

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I am trying. It keeps talking to me like it is my life long friend..in ways its conforting but i keep thinking its going to hurt me some day.

Manipulating me as it done in the past.

Well im taking its help. But some of the things he says is like what my best friend said to me. They wont get out of my head...Its making me go crazy. He just stands there smiling.

Although it has told me some wise words. Its like it has 2 personalities... like one minute its like it wants to help, then the next it torments me....

Im so lonely without my gf now......she is the only one that can help me...

i gotta get some money on my phone..
 
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