The way I see things. **Maybe Trig Probably Offend**

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Forgotten_Man, Sep 21, 2006.

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  1. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

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    This thread is created of course assuming that I never gather the courage to kill myself... which is... well I don't know. ANYWAY, so this is basically the philosophy I see should I continue living.

    I feel that if things are to be then they will be. You know if I am to be happy it will happen. If I am to save it will happen. Everything will fall into place if they are supposed too. Though I do not believe in an overall destiny. I believe that things are kind of planned but not far enough in the future. I don't know how far ahead something might be planned. And I also believe things happen on accident, kind of like the discovery of Penicillin.

    I really do hope that the mods allow this entire post.

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    So then, I asked myself why am I suicidal. So while thinking back on this I wondered and wondered and came across the Oncology section some old Bio 120 notes. In the notes it talked about how cancer is formed, cells reproducing out of control. It also talked about how the body protects itself. The most simple and basic way that the body protects its self is by telling the cells to kill themselves. And the cells do just that without thought. When a cells does not respond to the initial command the body tries other things to get the cell to die or kill itself. So I look at the planet as sort of another body. Only we are the cells of this body. And well with our population swell we have become sort of a cancer. So the planet is trying to protect itself in the most basic way it can. Though telling us to kill ourselves. Some listen to that call, and they are no longer here. While others do not listen to that call. Now this raises another question why don't we all just kill ourselves. Well that is simple the body still needs the cells the cancer is attached too. If all the cells just killed themselves we would lose that body part. So no we don't just kill ourselves off.

    Nature finds the infected inferior cells and commands us to kill ourselves, I am one. So we get this message some of us listen others of us don't. So over the years the planet keeps trying to kill us. Sometimes it succeeds sometimes it fails. But the planet is not purely biological there is something else there too. Sometimes the we weak cancer beings find what we need and the cancer is removed from our body and we are no longer the weak cells but the stronger cells. But this these events are Rare and few and far spread. More often is a more powerful cancer cell convinces us that we are not weak and feeble and should not die. Whether it be through pills or whatever. You have to keep in mind the cancer is a being on its own most of the time. It does not want to die off. So it protects itself by protecting its cells through whatever it can.

    The way I generally look at things is simple really. Those who were once cancer cells and now are not have it simple. They no longer have those feelings of wanting to die. They are all a memory. As where those of us who think we are cured continue to think these thoughts and have these thoughts. So some just resist them others lean on a stronger cancer cell to make sure that they are indeed okay.

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    Anyway that is the way I see the world. And questions comments threats?
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    very interesting analogy. not sure I understand it completely, but interesting as hell.:wink: or, as Mr Spock would say, "fascinating".:wink:

  3. joce

    joce Active Member

    I think that's an interesting view and original too. We really are just grains of sand in a big big universe and of very little significance. Why do some people put so much emphasis on having a nice house, getting the perfect relationship and wearing the right clothes. You're clearly a thinker and we need more of those around. I avoid people in everyday life, as they're too superficial and phoney for my liking. Wish I could share a house with fellow depressives, where I could just be myself.
  4. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Ha ha sorry... I tried to put it as simple as I could. I have had that thought boiling around in my head for about 4 months now... if you have any questions on meaning I could clarify

    Ha ha me too but then I realize that I am scared of even my fellow depressives so I would not be myself. The only place I can be me is on the net. The only safe place on the universe for someone like me.... keep in mind I am a CS person and know ALL to well the dangers of the interent it was a metaphor. Lucky for me I have a room to hide in.
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