Something I have always thought about in life. There are different willpowers that govern how your life runs and how much you put "points" into it. The will to live is the one that encompasses all the different wills in our life, without it we're dead. Some wills are more meaningful to us than others. The will to love and be loved, the will of happiness, a will to be successful, the will of ambition, etc. As babies, I think we start out with all the wills set up as high as possible, and as time goes by and we experience life, we lose a bit of it until we lost it completely.
The mind is powerful, more powerful than the physical manifestation of whatever your preferred suicidal method is. It's the only one that can stop you from doing what you feel like doing. Sometimes you lose it on the way, and you can't get it back, unless something amazing happens in life that gives you an ounce of that willpower back.
You experience so much pain and hurt in your life that you start losing the will to be loved very fast, next is your own happiness, next is your self-protection, until now all the pain is knocking down your will to live. I've only seen someone lose their will to live a few times, with no underlying medical conditions present or suicidal weapons involved. It's all about channeling your negative energy towards a vital organ in the body, causing it stress. I know I can will that inside of me now. I learned how to make my heart heavy with stress, I learn how to slow down my breathing to the point where I feel almost dead, just by taking all the negative energy in my life and centering it into one location, but you know what's stopping me? The will to love my one and only.
So far I've lost the will to receive happiness, praise, compliments, the will to hope, my will to eat and drink fully (I only eat and drink to survive)... Last week my love one that I care about most says that when I die, she doesnt want to remember me. That just cemented my end in life because she wont worry or be sad when I'm gone, but she still keeps me in thrall cause she still cares and loves me for who I am and what I've done for her. She's distant at times now and pretty soon the caring and loving will end.
All that aside, most of us don't want to die, cause we have something we long for, something we still care about in this world that keeps us from doing the inevitable. Even if we deny those feelings in our heads, our heart doesn't. You can easily lose your mind and sanity, but you can't lose your heart and will. Just something I wanted to share whats in my head....
The mind is powerful, more powerful than the physical manifestation of whatever your preferred suicidal method is. It's the only one that can stop you from doing what you feel like doing. Sometimes you lose it on the way, and you can't get it back, unless something amazing happens in life that gives you an ounce of that willpower back.
You experience so much pain and hurt in your life that you start losing the will to be loved very fast, next is your own happiness, next is your self-protection, until now all the pain is knocking down your will to live. I've only seen someone lose their will to live a few times, with no underlying medical conditions present or suicidal weapons involved. It's all about channeling your negative energy towards a vital organ in the body, causing it stress. I know I can will that inside of me now. I learned how to make my heart heavy with stress, I learn how to slow down my breathing to the point where I feel almost dead, just by taking all the negative energy in my life and centering it into one location, but you know what's stopping me? The will to love my one and only.
So far I've lost the will to receive happiness, praise, compliments, the will to hope, my will to eat and drink fully (I only eat and drink to survive)... Last week my love one that I care about most says that when I die, she doesnt want to remember me. That just cemented my end in life because she wont worry or be sad when I'm gone, but she still keeps me in thrall cause she still cares and loves me for who I am and what I've done for her. She's distant at times now and pretty soon the caring and loving will end.
All that aside, most of us don't want to die, cause we have something we long for, something we still care about in this world that keeps us from doing the inevitable. Even if we deny those feelings in our heads, our heart doesn't. You can easily lose your mind and sanity, but you can't lose your heart and will. Just something I wanted to share whats in my head....