I am not going to be able to see my therapist much longer. There is a cap on the number of times he can see me. This has been a stronger blow than i can take. He was the only thing keeping me trying. i look normal. i look like i actually enjoy life. i do "normal" things every day. I pass for normal. what people don't see is the tornado inside... they don't see that inside i am full of chaos and pain. i feel like screaming all the time. but i don't. i look normal. even when the bipolar is on the flip side and I am up... i feel dizzy and my thoughts/feelings are out of control. i see my psychiatrist on thursday, if he has no better solution for me then i am done.