losing // on the verge of losing a partner. My brain is mean, and the older I get the worse it becomes. If I do survive the heartache and heartbreak, I will feel so much shame and longing that I would feel guilty and stupid and unworthy to ever be with anyone else. I will never let myself have happiness. I hate myself. No matter what anyone says to me , it’s all logical and it’s all good but all I can seem to think about is of all the different ways I could end up in hospital away from reality or simply away from being alive.
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nausea, loss of appetite, suicidal ideation, sadness, numbness, anxiety.
I have not felt happy once in the last two weeks and usually I at least have a 1 minute time in the day when I look at a bird flying or something and I can see beauty and I can smile. I haven’t had that, and I simply can’t live like this.
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nausea, loss of appetite, suicidal ideation, sadness, numbness, anxiety.
I have not felt happy once in the last two weeks and usually I at least have a 1 minute time in the day when I look at a bird flying or something and I can see beauty and I can smile. I haven’t had that, and I simply can’t live like this.