Hello. I feel very bad these days psychologically, and I have a mental illness called paranoid schizophrenia, I am afraid it is messing up my thoughts and my feelings and so on. I feel like the "other side" is calling me to them and that I need to check out from this physical realm and contribute more positive to a better world in the next phase (death,spiritual world or so on), I Have some pills which could end this but I want first some advice on why I FEEL LIKE A SPECIAL PERSON WITH SOME SPECIAL PURPOSE IN LIFE, the birds try to talk to me but I cant hear what they say and the ipod songs are all messed up, The songs is about the earth and stuff and I play a vital role in it.. I feel like the world wants to be decieved and im thinking bout 2012, the endtimes and so on... The world is changing badly badly badly in stuff, and peoples minds r being affected and I DONT WANT TO PLAY MY PART IN IT! HELP ME OUT PLEASE!