First off I can't really say how odd I even feel being here. By here I don't mean alive, but I mean this place. For so long I thought I was alone in my thoughts, feelings, even actions when it comes to such a serious subject. So I do think my best friend back home for bringing mere here. I guess I created this topic because of a lot has been going through my mind already. The biggest thing of course being suicide. I suppose like the rest of you here I have both thought about this subject many times, and even attempted it to no avail. Sometimes I can't help but wonder what the world will be like if I ever actually do go through with things. Sure a few good people will be upset, and just as mum says 'the world will still go on.' Does this mean we are forgotten then? Maybe that worries me most. I never wanted to be famous for anything, but my biggest fear is death. Kind of strange to say such when one has attempted there own life so many times. I've had a few friends who killed themselves.I was devistated and the only words of wisdom or comfort my mum had to say was "its sad, but it happens." I never go to to the funeral, and maybe thats why I don't have my own closure.Suicide never really was an option or thing for me until at age 10 or so. Its odd to think a child would consider these thoughts and have them follow with them through the rest of there lives. I guess the question becomes, does the pain ever stop? And if I'm gone...will the world just go on without me? I doubt this is even the right place to post such a topic, but I'll work on getting my barrings a little later.