I tried killing myself yesterday evening. I was sure that I would just fall asleep and never wake up again. I was so dumb. Three hours later, midnight, I woke up and had to throw up, and since that I didn't do anything else than that for almost 12 hours....... At 2:30am I went to my parents' bedroom downstairs and woke my dad up to let him drive me to the hospital. I ended up telling him what I had done and wanted him to bring me to the hospital, but he just didn't, because he thinks that if anyone finds out that I tried to kill myself, that I'll end up in a psychiatry. So I lied there, next to my dad, frequently running to the bathroom because I had to throw up. I didn't go to school today because I simply couldn't. My classmates will kill me on monday, because we had a chemistry classtest today and they probably also had a history test. I will probably need all the weekend to recover. My boyfriend is shocked, and he says I should have someone test my blood. I can't hear much anymore, my mum said it might stay like that. But at least I hear something, so even if it stays like that, there will be the possibility to help me by giving me hearing aid. I feel better now, it's only my hearing and I still have a little urge to throw up, but not much anymore.