...or at least to me it is.
what a heartless person i am.
seriously.
and i hate these thoughts, HATE them.
and the thought is this - i wish it were all over. i wish the cancer was done with and "it" was all over.
im not sure i can do this.
im not sure i can emotionally deal with the ups and downs as they continue to happen.
im not sure i can watch it take her over, when that time comes.
and at the same time, i dont want it all done, because then she is gone - forever.
its a selfish, selfish thought. but sometimes i wish it were so.
what a heartless person i am.
seriously.
and i hate these thoughts, HATE them.
and the thought is this - i wish it were all over. i wish the cancer was done with and "it" was all over.
im not sure i can do this.
im not sure i can emotionally deal with the ups and downs as they continue to happen.
im not sure i can watch it take her over, when that time comes.
and at the same time, i dont want it all done, because then she is gone - forever.
its a selfish, selfish thought. but sometimes i wish it were so.