When I think I'm over it there's something that turns up from the past that makes it all wash back in everyone who sexually assaulted and the guy who raped lately. The repeat of it all in my head is getting worse I feel myself slipping into a place I once was before and my heart is beginning to feel heavier and beginning to feel so much weaker. Three cousin, my sister's boyfriend, and "my best friend" he's the one who raped me we were close since young. When he did that to me if was in February right near my birthday I tried blocking it I ended up wanting to hurtself ,I know it's not the answer but when so many people take advantage they way do it hurts I feel as of I can't breath in my skin. I think I need help befoe this get worse.