I am getting really scared that my therapist and myself are coming close to parting ways. I have seen her since late 2002. She is becoming impatient with me and I am realizing now she is controlling. She tells me what I should and should not do. For example she has told me to use the forums no more than one hour a day. I really think that is my call not hers. Not sure what would happen if we decide to part ways. She has been a part of my support system for many years now. That could be the very thing to push me to suicide again especially if the change to a new therapist is difficult. I am scared and not sure what kind of mood I will be in after my appt on Monday.