Howdy all, New to the forum - have the severe major depression with psychotic features, recurrent (DSM: 296.34) from my neuropsychiatrist testing - said my brain is physically different from the norm. Been thinking of being back on anti-depressants, and getting therapy - not sure what route I'm going to take though. I've had good experience with celexa, but horrible experiences with pretty much every other med out there (tricyclics, MAOI's, and SSRI's). Any other Anti-Depressents people have had good success with? (horror stories welcome too) Lost a lot of friends when I went on the Thorazine, Risperdal, Zyprexa, Seroquel cocktail - don't want that to happen again (not sure if my friends were real or not, but at least they always provided me with some company). Think I may need an anti-psychotic though people are telling me that what I'm saying doesn't make any sense and that some people I know here are not real - anyone know of one that doesn't have so many horrible side effects? (other than the ones mentioned above) Therapy-wise I may be in a hospital for a while here (stop me from doing something bad). I've been trying to find a good resource to find councilors/therapists in my area, but all that I've seen don't give information on the actual people working there (had a bad experience, my trust was violated with a therapist once - not in regards to harming anyone/myself - just had a mutual friend who ended up knowing all my secrets). Any good internet resources? Thanks.