Hi, I'm considering suicide in part because I've seen 11 therapists and none of them have helped me long-term. (One helped me short-term, but he majorly traumatized me later.) Some of the others have seriously harmed me as well. I guess I just feel like it's a wild goose chase to look for another one after so many failures. I also don't have a lot of money to pay them, and of course they always take money even when they don't help. I'm not on the brink of suicide--the psychiatrist I'm seeing is going to prescribe lithium this week, so I'll see how that works before I do anything. (Other medications have helped me in the past, but I had to stop due to side effects.) The stupid thing is that I really really want to get help, I don't want to kill myself, I just feel like that's the only option left sometimes. What are you supposed to do when everyone says to get help, but the help doesn't help?