Comments are welcome. 'I live' I live in a world where words shout, Back at you with force I live in a world where Image screams, "I need help!" I live in a world where voices differ, and a single one is irrelevant No one cares if you scream, in the middle of a packed room. And everyones eyes are on you, when you fit into the crowd. I live in a world where air strangles, and the water is beautiful I live in a world where wrong is right, and opposites attract. I live in a world where answers rule, but there are no answers. Why do things go wrong? But the end is always right? What happens to the words I write, And freedom of speech? Why do I have so many questions and not enough answers? Why does the world undermine people? undermine me? 'I have one thing' I see pretty faces speaking no words worthless words meaningless NO SOUND pathetic inferior child sticks her big nose in where the sun don't shine only to reap the rewards of success and honour in times of hatred and deadliness where weasels live and survive in their own squalor MY HATE SPANS THE UNIVERSE I CAN'T LOVE YOU pathetic weasel child go home to mummy a mothers love kills those who need it take it AWAY take from the rich and donate to ME YOU ARE STUPID this truth drives me into madness i know i can stop the pain if i will it all AWAY but i have no will stolen by love taken by the sun put out of reach where time stands still where you have the chance to DIE go and leave my world crawl in the ashes of success blinded by the smoke for you will never feel hatred set you free FOR YOU ARE ALIVE AND THAT MY DEAR IS SO LAST SEASON don't cry to me for your eyes fill mine with fear and your tears feed me giving me silent messages to turn down my life, only to be disappointed because you underestimate my strength I HAVE ONE THING ONE THING you will never have i have me i have made up your mind 'Harriet' - Named after a doll I received from my Nan when I was a child. I wrote this through the dolls eyes. All of my friends from long ago, are tucked away in their own little homes, I'm always cold, a chill in the air, I see what they don't I hear what they ignore. Yes, I'm comfortable, yes I'm well, but I'm alone, on my own. Friends, What are they? I have but one. She is very much bigger then me, she suffocates me often, she hurts me sometimes. She never listens to my sore voice, she only speaks. She tells me of her day, of her pain, of her fury. She tells me of those who hate her of those who love her of those she loves. I see her harm herself, this makes me sad, for all those times we were best friends And now I'm just a memory. I still here all day just thinking thinking on my own,waiting for the dark to fall, for her misery to behold me. For her blood to run onto my old dirty dress for her tears to fall into my tangled hair. I'm waiting for the day she tells me she loves me like she used to. I'm waiting for the young girl she used to be. when she would hold me in her arms, with a true smile on her face. and she would wrap me in a blanket and place me in my bed. When she truly wanted me. I love you my friend, I'm never far away, I'm still here, in the corner of your bed, still lying here, still holding your most deep secrets. You only changed yourself. You are still loved, I'm your only true family left, I still love you like the young child you used to be. I'll never forget 'Mourning' Water born under fire. A misled existance. A misguided life. A ritual of mourning. Noon. Night. A knife as sharp as a chop stick. A life on the middle prong of a fork. A wrong made right by excuses. Bottle fed lies. Breast fed nourishment. Dead brain cells, A star grades. Walking on a shattered pavement. Minding the cracks. Missing every one. Companions forgotten. As fast as can be. Can it be madness? 'Untitled' There will be a time, (There is always time) When life is gone, (There is always life) And you wont exist, (There is always existance) In my mind. When you go away, (Don't come back) I wont miss you, (Don't try me) Because you hurt me, (Don't deny it) and I don't love you. Can't you change? (Please Change) I'm pleading with you, (Please listen) To be a different man, (Please, for me) Is that too much? Now I've decided (I've decided) I am to change, (I've decided) I'm progressing without you, (I've decided) Because you are stuck in time. You had the opportunity, (Yes) I gave you plenty, (Yes) You dismayed, mislayed, and played each one (Yes) To my advantage. 'Tighten my reins.' Tighten my reins pull me in closer to pus me away again. the tighter I'm held the further I fall Discrimination. Hate. Aren't you supposed to care? Attention seeking dead threatening. The more you 'love' me the more I hate you. You do not love in the right way. You just don't care anymore. All that fucking bubblewrap has rotten me sweetness has decayed me. Jealousy has made me. Treat. Her. Differently. Just because I dress this way. Let her go with her teen pregnancy drag me up deprived. You grew me this way. You made me behave, you forced me. Rebel. Say it loud, I wear black and I'm proud wearing skin so pale. I appear dead, to separate myself from your false existance. 'Dedicated to a friend' You hear my words, You seek my light, You find my friendship, You feel my plight. You know my feelings, You know I care, You know in bad times, I'm always there. 'Dear Daddy' I hope the pain is eating you up from the inside. I hope the alcohol delays the ache. I hope the truth will hit you hard. I hope in the dark you lie awake. I hope you live for a very long time. To give you space to wallow To give you a soul to pity To give you pills to swallow.