just blackness. Thats what i saw. Monday. Didnt feel like working. Couldnt stop crying. Nothing triggered me , i just fell. I went to get some paracetamol for my head then i found some other things. So took a big ass nap with the aid of some pills and hard ass vodka. Blackness. Woke up Tue night. Parents gave me what for. I just lay there passive. Got home this afternoon. Feel like shit. Gonna try and sleep a bit. Or something. I dont believe in God. There was no light. No tunnel. Or maybe you say that i didnt get far enough to see that. I think that we would just wake up somewhere else. I hope that when i die i come back as a bird. Just not human. Anything but human.