i had it all at one point i beautiful wife loving family and everyday i made those around me smile. but in 4 short months all of it changed i lost my best friend to sickle cell and my nephew was murdered my wife left me a day atfer my birthday and told me she was coming back but then found someone else and moved in with him after a month of meeting him . she toys with my heart saying that she wants to come back to me but then tells me about how happy she is with him the happiness i brought to other people faded when i reached out to them. they all wish to have nothing to do with me. the pain is unbearable i wish for it to stop. and if i even try to find someone else they only want me for my money. i want this all to stop but it seems like God is making me suffer. i thought about suicide and i truly believe if i wasnt here anymore my soul would finally be at peace. This feeling this sadness that i feel i wish for no one to feel. i gave my wife everything i put my very soul into our marriage but i dont think it was enough now i walk this earth alone seeking those who know my pain and welcoming them into my sorrow.