There is still pain

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Atheist Demon, Sep 16, 2008.

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  1. Atheist Demon

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    I tried to overdose on the 11th (it had nothing to do with Patriot Day). And I had to go to the hospital and drink this black liquor charcoal (yeah nasty). I then was sent to Laureate (a psychological hospital) and was put on WO (watch out) for 36 hours (watch out is wHere you are monitor every second and you have nothing in your room except a mat for a bed.) And then I was released and now I feel like I should of stayed longer. What should I do? Cause I don't feel like I can trust myself to be alone, but I also don't have insurance to go back.
  2. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    That was it?
    They watched you then let you go :blink: erm no back up, no psych evaluation, not even a chat?
    If you are still feeling unsafe then you need to be talking this thru with a doc.
    Do you have a GP you can go to and get some advice from or even a referal?

    If all else fails ring the Samaritans at least they will listen.
  3. ~Claire

    ~Claire Well-Known Member


    I don't really know how the whole healthcare/insurance thing works in the US but did you receive no follow up after you were discharged? Can they leave you with no aftercare just cos you're not insured?

    Is there any friends or family that you can stay with if you don't feel safe? Or if that's not an option phone/email the Samaritans or phone one of the crisis lines. If I don't feel safe sometimes I find just posting on here helps too, it certainly keeps me distracted anyway.

    I think you really should try & see a doctor though. Are you on any meds/therapy at the moment?

    Take care & stay safe xx
  4. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Do you have any type of support system? Maybe a family member or friend you could stay with for at least a few days? Is there someone you can call should the thoughts take over and your safety is in danger? I am surprised they did not make you have an after care plan before they released you. Remember you an call the crisis line in your area if need be. Speak to your doctor about your concerns. They might help you develop a safety plan. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:
  5. Atheist Demon

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    My mom works in another state, and my dad is in a people's home. I spend most of my time bored, lonely, and depressed.
  6. Samantha

    Samantha Well-Known Member

    No wonder you are Atheist you are experiencing a lot of hardships,
    its seems you are all alone,
    Speaking to the Samaritans for me is lack speaking to a brick wall,though some people like to ring them everyday to get stress off their chests.

  7. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey Bryant,
    Have you checked with social services where you are, and asked about any agencies that handle people with no insurance. Try to get medicaid to cover you hospitalization.
    I would write out a letter stating everything that is going on with your life and especially the suicidal part and the recent attempt. Let them know you are still at that point where you are not safe, that you are going to harm yourself again.
    Here in Florida they have an agency called ACT that takes care of people with no insurance. That is who I go thru. They have me see a shrink every three months unless it is an emergency, then they will work you in sooner. They cover my meds all I pay is a copayment.
    Check in to these things!!! I hope you find the help you need!!Take Care!!~Joseph~
  8. QuadLazer

    QuadLazer Well-Known Member

    The almost exact same thing happened to me. The first time I went in, I was rushed out on Christmas Eve morning. Not to sound discouraging, but I ended back up in the same treatment center a few days after my release, and then again a third time after that.

    The black stuff is liquid charcoal. It's supposed to make you throw up to clean your system (more or less).

    Honestly, I'm not even going to suggest family, friends, teachers, etc. for support. They may or may not be there (I'm not going to assume anything about how good your relationships are with your mother and father), but if they ARE there, they might be able to help you. Even if she's in a different state, there may be a way to at least contact her. But, really, the way I looked at MY treatment, it was all on me in the end. I have to look inward each day to discover new things about myself to give myself. It doesn't work a lot, but at least I give it hell each and every day.

    As far as insurance goes- treatment is the furthest thing from free. So not only would looking for ways around going back to the hospital work better- it would also be a good financial decision. And I know that most people will tell you that if you need it, money shouldn't matter, but, hell, if everyone thought like that no one, and I mean NO ONE, would have a penny.

    And, I guess I SHOULD suggest this... call someone. Especially if you don't feel safe, try it. Didn't work for me, but you may have better luck with it.

    Stay calm, stay strong, and the rest should fall in to place if you just keep trying.
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