God damn i wanna die. Theres no good reason why i should stay alive. I'm never gonna be normal. I'm always gonna be weird, akward, and ugly so why try. I was at a party right now and i couldnt stand being there. All my words and actions were soo forced. I dont wana fake smiling anymore. I left and nobody cared. Now im drinking alone and all i wana do is get in my car and go smash into a telephone pole.