I don't really know why I'm posting here. My life just doesn't matter, no one in the world loves me, and I can see the future as clear as day, no one will ever love me. I just don't see a point in continuing, what's the point in living everyday without hope? just to aimlessly go on without cause or reason. I just want to sleep and never wake, never feel any pain or suffering, to just finally be without any of it. So many people, have it so much worse in this world than I do, but I just don't want this anymore, I don't want to have to go on, day by day with nothing. I'm not afraid of dying, but I don't want to put my family though it, I don't want it to be a shadow over their life. I don't want them to suffer with it, I don't want anyone to.