i have nothing. i am at a loss for words. she was my world, my purpose, my muse, my sun, my earth. and now, she is gone and i'm afraid, for good. she allowed me to feel happiness, true utter happiness in a time when everything was completely uncertain. she made me laugh, she made me smile, she made me think. but now, i'm on the verge of tears. i can't see myself with anyone else. no one has ever made me feel so incredibly whole. i do not want to go on without her by my side. i do not want to go on without her support. there is only one option left for me. to eliminate her from my mind, forever.