I was feeling terribly suicidal two weeks ago, and at my girlfriend's request, I saw a psychiatrist who prescribed me with Lexapro. I'm taking it as asked of me, but deep down I don't feel satisfied with life. I feel empty, and I can't think of anything that would make me feel satisfied. Even if I was rich or famous or anything like that, I know I would still feel this way. I have many loved ones in my life, and I feel bad that I don't get a sense of satisfaction from them either. I don't have any dreams; I pick up tons of hobbies and activities to try to fill the void, and I'm pretty good at most things that I stick with for a little bit, but I soon get bored and give up. Because of this, I don't have a favorite activity. I just shift my attention from one topic to another to distract myself from feeling miserable for reasons I don't understand. I don't want my life to be one big distraction from an underlying issue; I want to feel fulfilled in life, and I can't think of anything that would make me feel that way. I don't think my brain is capable of letting me feel happy or satisfied. Maybe I expect too much out of life. The last thing I want to do is leech off the kindness of this community by wasting everybody's time with emo posts, but I do want an honest opinion: Even if I am taking meds and seeing a therapist, nothing will ever get better since I don't want to get better deep down, will it?