After my last hospitalization I refused to go back to school. I was homeschooled for awhile thinking I'd be going into a Residential Treatment Center this January. Turns out they aren't sending me to one, instead they are sending me back to school. They think I'm too stable to go to RTC. Truth is, I'm far from it. I'm scared to go back to school. People bully me relentlessly there. I have a plan for suicide, and a suicide note already. I was planning on< edit mod total eclipse method>, but I timed it wrong and the car barely missed me. After that I was scared to try again, but I think this time I may do it. Help.