Howdy all, The family I've been staying with smelled the alcohol on my breath this morning - they will most likely kick me out now. I can't stand being homeless, so I think it's time I end everything - that way I won't have the drinking problem or any of my other problems (permanent problems). AA doesn't work - I'm sorry, but I've tried and they always push religion or other crap down my throat - I only want to drink more when I go to the meetings. Wish I could end my life on a high note - but that's just not possible. See you all later.