To make a long story short there are family members whom I could never tell that I post at SF. 1. Father(by adoption)--he would freak out and think more poorly of me than he already does. He knows I do drugs but does not know that I hate my life to the point of wanting it to end. 2. My 19 yr. old cousin. He's like a bro to me and is living the normal life(girlfriend, job, etc.) so he would never understand my feelings at all, thus we'd be driven further apart than we already are(our opinions differ to the extreme sometimes). Man, they would get together and have me put away somewhere, or atleast try to, but if they failed they would despise me for it. As a matter of fact no one in my family would/could ever understand. Luckily most of my other family(aunts/uncles/cousins) are spread out all over the country, so the chance of them ever finding out is nonexistant.