I tried reaching out for help. I don't have possession of any blades, but when I was irritated with myself, I would hit myself constantly until I bled or got bruised very badly. When I tried telling someone, they said it wasn't real self harm. They said if I was serious, I would cut myself. I have bumps and bruises on my head, legs, arms, chest, and more. When I don't cut my nails, I slice my skin, usually on the upper chest, because I don't wear low-cut shirts or bathing suits, so no one can see it. I used to have fair skin, but now it's almost purple. I do a lot of sports, so many people think it's just from falling down. I don't know what to do. Every time I get irritated or frustrated with myself, I hit myself. I've even hit myself so hard I've passed out. Sometimes even when I'm not hitting myself on the head, I still fall unconscious from the pain. I had a SPECT scan recently that was diagnosing me with epilepsy (a seizure disorder), and it showed no head trauma, so I guess I'm lucky there. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm stuck, abusing myself. But I've been told it's not real self harm. So it's hard finding help. I will try to tell my therapist if you think that would help. I would tell my neurologist if I could, but he intimidates me, and it's hard to talk to him. He's too smart...he knows when I'm hiding things from him.