You know that math problem you never thought you'd have to use? You know, that one about a train leaving a station traveling and such and such speed for such and such distance. When will it arrive? I've been working out this problem all day. It comes through around 11 at night. It really should be going fast enough to kill me <Mod Edit: Methods> I'd jump off this bridge but I'm terrifyed of heights and since cars drive by I think there'd be more of a chance someone would try and stop me. It'd kill me 100% I haven't really decided how yet but I've decided that it has to happen. I feel sick with guilt. I've been crying and shaking all day with no desire to do anything but stop the pain. Things aren't getting better. I just want to end my suffering.