I have yet to see that again. There was a time when I was pretty happy, had a girlfriend, friends etc. Things just fell apart soon after I was done with high school. My brother was diagnosed with schiznophrenia, so my mom and dad started boozing it up and fought physically almost every night and this was when I was around 14. It went like that for 4 years. Eventually, I lost contact with all my friends, lost my self confidence, self esteem. I pretty much just wanted to end it all or just move away from this family and live alone and work some crappy ass job that paid for me to survive alone. And around when I was 18, my mom walked out on us because she didn't wanna deal with all this. So she married someone else right away as soon as she left us and said she didn't wanna see me again. Well, you know, oo: I guess but how could a mother just forget about her sons like that. It's been about 6 months and she hasn't bothered to call. My dad is outta' country doing some business work and today I just crashed my car into a fire hydrant crying over the things that I couldn't get from life (the crash wasn't intentional, I just fucked up). I just wanna' run away from it all, or just end it. I keep dreaming of the day where I'd meet someone who finally understands me.