i'm sorry to come to you under these conditions but i do feel maybe it's important to get this off of my chest. things are really bleak atm. in all honesty i don't want to continue to move forward. i have taken all i can take and sincerely can take no more. i'm sorry for letting some of you down. i have wanted so badly to help you but at this moment i'm having trouble taking care of myself. i just am not sure what to do atm but i do know what i feel like doing. i'm not going to ramble on. sorry to have troubled you.