I got a new job after being jobless for a year, i am hanging out with the girl i like almost every day, and my parents arent yelling at me as much. my life seems to be getting better but i still wanna kill myself. i am supposed be doing better in life i shouldnt be having these thoughts now, but they keep coming. my life is doing better than it was but still i see no future for myself i just keep thinking how things would be much better if i wasnt around. i dont know what do anymore and now that i am still having these thoughts killing myself seems like a pretty good idea right now cause my life is going better and i still think i should do it. i am just dont think i was meant to live this long.