Things arent good at the moment , I am an alcoholic ,I go to AA meetings and have a sponsor.
My husband is more or less threating to leave me if i drink and right now i am craving whiskey , my husband would rather that i would cut myself than drink how fucked up is that?
I am doing what am told to do going to AA meetings taking my medication at the right times and i feel like am being treated like am a criminal.
My sponsor wants me to brake contact with my mother at the moment because my mother puts me down a lot and really had a go at me the other day saying that i am lazy because i dont work and have a disability. I have to tell my mother am an alcoholic and tell her to go to al alon or i will stop all contact with her.
WTF ?? i dont want to do that. My mum maybe a bitch but she is going blind ,she has lost one daughter due to a family fall out and dont see her grandkids because my sister wont let her see them .
I like my sponsor she is really nice other wise but her saying i have to do this is making me think again about her being my sponsor
I feel very suicidal at the moment because of this and mentally not so good
I have blades beside me and i want to use them to cut my wrists unsure weather that is to kill myself or to just self injure
I want a fucking drink i need a fucking drink and no one gives a fuck
My husband is more or less threating to leave me if i drink and right now i am craving whiskey , my husband would rather that i would cut myself than drink how fucked up is that?
I am doing what am told to do going to AA meetings taking my medication at the right times and i feel like am being treated like am a criminal.
My sponsor wants me to brake contact with my mother at the moment because my mother puts me down a lot and really had a go at me the other day saying that i am lazy because i dont work and have a disability. I have to tell my mother am an alcoholic and tell her to go to al alon or i will stop all contact with her.
WTF ?? i dont want to do that. My mum maybe a bitch but she is going blind ,she has lost one daughter due to a family fall out and dont see her grandkids because my sister wont let her see them .
I like my sponsor she is really nice other wise but her saying i have to do this is making me think again about her being my sponsor
I feel very suicidal at the moment because of this and mentally not so good
I have blades beside me and i want to use them to cut my wrists unsure weather that is to kill myself or to just self injure
I want a fucking drink i need a fucking drink and no one gives a fuck