Things usually balance out. Life gets bad then it gets good and vice versa. I enjoy the good times. It's easy. I feel good, life is good. But when it evens out and the bad comes. it's like a tornado. Short, intense, and devasting. The tornado is not the scary part. You have no time to react, it might even seem exciting, but Its the aftermath that always scares me. I'm experiencing the aftermath of my situation right now and I'm too defeated to look through the rubble And try to salvage anything. I knew that if I attempted to fly no one would be there to catch me if I fell, and it feels like I'm still falling, so even though I hate asking for things, reader, would you pray for me? Pray that I'll have the strength to overcome this.