Hi I've felt depressed for a few years now mainly due to my personality being that i am very shy and quiet, this has caused me alot of pain in the past, but i won't go into detail in an effort to keep it shorter This has caused me pain in the past but i have never felt suicidal. but recently my life seems to have gone down the pan. about September last year i was happy i had a girlfriend that i loved and had just left my old dead end depressing job for a new career with plenty of oppertunities in a type of work i enjoyed. Then everything seemed to go wrong, my girlfriend finished me ( for the usual reasons being quiet etc) and 6 months later i lost my job due to the company closing down, i am now out of work and really struggling with bills and i'm very close to being kicked out of my home because i can't keep up with the rent. and to top it off i'm losing my hair at the age of 23. i'm looking for work but its very difficult to get a job in the current climate especially seen as i don't have any significant experience in any particular field. All this is just adding to the stres i've had before and i'm struggling to cope, i can't sleep, i have no energy during the day and i'm losing my motivation and i can't enjoy the things i used to and i break down in tears at times because i can't cope (only in private though). i've cut myself a few times just to see how much it would hurt and to see if i could go through with slitting my wrists. i'm feeling desperate and i don't know what to do. i know i should try and see a doctor about it but i find it really hard to open up and talk to people a bout this in peron. i really don't know what to do. sorry its long thanks for taking time to read it.